Am I OK? (2022)

"I don't want to be this thing that's different, I don't want to have to tell everybody this big thing, I know that it's fine and nobody cares — but I care." 

This movie was a very average watch, nothing substantial or amazing about it, but it meant a lot to somebody like me who struggled with sexuality and the concept of "being different" and wondering if I'd be okay for a really long time. 

I wouldn't be surprised if this movie was just Dakota Johnson playing a projection of herself, I completely understand and relate. From the crying to a best friend to wanting to try to figure yourself out, even to the "sexuality is a spectrum" girlies ruining my life for a solid few weeks. 

I think that this movie, as average and non-life changing as it was, was a very good watch for a very specific audience. If you're not a part of that target audience, I can understand how this film would be underwhelming and slow, but to me, it meant a lot. 

I think that Dakota Johnson does a wonderful job portraying attempting to navigate the difficulties of figuring out your sexuality and coming to terms with the fact that you aren't a part of the "normal" of society. The quote from Lucy really hit me like a truck. I actually went back and re-watched to make sure I quoted it exactly. I didn't want to be this thing that was different. I didn't want to have to. tell everybody this huge thing I was "hiding" and trying to figure out myself. In reality, nobody really cares all that much, but I cared. 

I'm not sure that this is a movie I would rewatch, with as slow, anticlimactic and boring as it was, but it's one that I was definitely glad I took the time to sit down and watch at all. It really hit home for me, especially when there's little to no sapphic representation on-screen. I really enjoyed the way both this film and Dakota Johnson potrayed being queer and how it feels to try to explore and learn that space, especially when you're on your own. Highly recommend to anybody that's struggled with their sexuality, but especially women. Definitely going to be a recommendation for future pride months and sapphic cinema.